The excitement takes control

OH BOY!

This past week was, to say the least, busy. I worked CONSTANTLY.

But the good news there? I got a part time job at Macy's. I officially have a home!! I'm SO excited, it's ridiculous.

Besides that, last week i was talking about my boy troubles.
Well, i talked to one of the boys about it, and let's just say things are "better" now. At least, kinda.

I'm so caught up in my own mind... i just hate the whole "missing and wishing" deal I'm going through.

It'll get better. I'm sure.

Until next time,

<3

Honest

This week has been full of me working and stressing out.

I love working at Macy's. There is only one thing i despise about working there. People are only there to make their sales goal and get credit apps. They hate working there, yet they are all always striving to make their goals... so much so that they don't really care about the customer.. they are only about their goals. It's silly.

Besides that, i've come to realize boys are dumb. Yes, I'm in the BOYS HAVE COOTIES EEWWW phase all over again. Or at least, i wish i was. There are two boys who have been on my mind as of late. I only like one of them.. but now i'm starting to see that was a waste of time.

Boy #1- likes me, my friend, and three other girls. He doesn't know what he wants. The sad thing is, the past two times he's asked me to hang  out, he texts me like an hour before we were supposed to, and says "Hey, this person asked me to do this but blah blah blah" Bascially, he ditches our plans. Oh well!

Boy # 2- I feel like he is playing some serious mind games with me. I like him a lot and i just can't seem to get over him. He's told me that he wants to get back together with me, but he doesn't feel ready. So we both agreed to ease into a relationship. So he tells me he likes me and whatever... and then he starts talking about how there are all these girls at college and he can't do anything about it because he's going on a mission. I don't think he understands.. that can hurt a girl! And then yesterday.. he came into my work to see me, and he starts talking about how he roommate has a thing with this girl. He made it seem like this big deal, and i said "well you dated before your mission (aka me)." and he said "well yeah, but then i saw the light."  OUCH, right? That hurt so badly. So i tried to compose myself during work, but after? I lost it. Anyways, i understand.. He's going on a mission and doesn't want to be distracted.. but i don't think he understands how badly that hurt!!

Besides my little rants, I'm SOOO excited!! I'm going to utah for four days.. to see Taylor Swift and then go to LDS Conference! I'm pumped!

Until next time,

<3 Taneil :)

Saying Goodbye

This past week was a hard one for me.

Some of my very best friends left for college this past week. And it has been SO hard to let them go in a sense.

Things are complicated with my ex.

And my friend.

And my friend's friend passed away this week... the day after i met her.

I just wanna scream.

Ouch with a side of UH OH!

This week will probably slap me in the face a few times. I'm working 39 hours.. and two of my very best friends are leaving for college. Oh whatever will i do?
A lot of been on my mind as of late, including. My ex, my cousin, and my friends.

Why are boys so complicated? And why do i feel so.. lost about things with a certain boy? I think we need to have a major talk and get things straightened out there before he leaves for college!

And oh boy. I MISS MY COUSIN LIKE CRAZY. But when it comes to him? I get really annoyed. My friend likes him.. and that whole situation.. DRIVES....ME....CRAZY... AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! There are so many feelings about that that i just don't like.

It seems when it comes to a certain friend...  i always come in second to her with everyone. Even MY family. And when that happens? It tends to make a person feel like crap.

Besides that joy, I'm getting sick. Sore throat.. stuffy nose, and the body aches... and i work ALL WEEK!

Ahh wish me luck, :)