A mix of emotions.

Man oh man!!! Has my last week been crazy! I've had such a love hate relationship with my last week, it's nuts.
I love this blog. I can get EVERY single emotion that I'm feeling out. It feels GREAT! It's really nice to have a place to vent. Because, right now? I don't know who i can talk to about all of this.

Let me recap my crazy busy week!

Monday was a good/bad day! So earlier in the day, i had plans with a friend of mine. We had planned to go get frozen yogurt together! Well, we ran into a problem. I didn't have a car and she couldn't drive. So, we decided we'd have to do it some other time.

Later on the night, i hung out with some other friends! My night started out with two amazing friends of mine. We went to Wendy's so that i could eat. After, we went to Chinese and met another friend there. While we were at the Chinese restaurant, drama started. I got a text from one of my friend's moms.

Remember the girl i had plans with earlier that day? Yeah, her MOM texts me.. FREAKING out because i "lied and ditched her daughter once again."  This is the third time her mom and gotten ahold of me somehow and just FREAKED out on me. She told me to "leave her and her daughter alone," so i stopped texting her and enjoyed my time with my friends.

We were all bored after they ate Chinese, so we decided to go walk around the river. While at the river, my friend's friend, Kellan, met us there!! Then sadly, it was time for everyone to go home. One friend went home in her car, and the rest of us took Kellan home. My best friend was up in the front seat talking to Kellan, and i was in the backseat really catching up with my old friend. I hadn't hung out with this girl in FOREVER. And i was so looking forward to making things better with her. ( we have a shaky past). All in All? That night was a success.

Tuesday was mainly a drama day. I had a training class pretty much the whole day. We got to take a lunch, so when we did, i looked at my phone. my phone had numerous texts from the mom from the night before. She layed into me AGAIN the next day. She just kept going on and on about what a liar i was and what a horrible friend i was. I mean i totally understand her being upset that her daughter is hurting... but seriously? She's a grown woman. I'm 18. She SHOULDN'T be freaking out on me like this. I left training sooo upset. So I headed over to "The Murph" to see my best friend. This mom was freaking out on her too. I left my friend's work, still upset.. but feeling better. I got on my facebook to find a message from this girls AUNT, again telling me how awful i am and how i only think about myself. So i left my house to go to mutual in tears. I felt just plain awful. I went there not acting like myself and EVERYONE noticed. I wasn't my usual crazy happy self. I was down and trying so hard not to cry. After a little time with my church girls, i felt better. It's so hard not to love them. They are all such great girls. My very good friend found out about what my friend's mom did and he FREAKED. He got SO upset. It was nice to know that he still cares, and that he's still there for me.

Wednesday, now THAT was a good day! Tuesday had been such a roller coaster with my emotions, that i took the day off. I hung out with my best friend Sarah!! She decided that we should go to the "The Murph" and get Kellan and Eric. (She's got a hugeeee thing for Eric.) I have to say, that was super entertaining!! Kellan is very.. interesting to take out into public. I got Kellan's number that day and we've been talking ever sense. He is a very nice guy!

 Later on that night, Sarah and i were still hanging out and we decided to go get Alli. We didn't know what to do.. so we had a random trip  to rexburg!! That's where Alli and I are both going to be going to college. So, we looked at two apartments. (The ones i liked, smelled HORRIBLE, and the one's that Alli's going to live in our SUPER expensive!!). After our two random stops, we decided to go to applebees for some delish mozzarella sticks! I had a good time with Sarah and Alli. Those two just know how to have fun.

Thursday was one of the good days out of the week. It started out with me hanging out with two of the girls that go to my church. (One of them being my very good friend's little sister.) We went shopping and got some frozen yogurt too! This was the day of the final Harry Potter movie and i was going with my very good friend! He had some stuff he had to do, so his little sister and i went and sat in line. I had a really good talk with her. She told me that her whole family loves me and it would have been really weird if i hadn't kept hanging out with her brother after our break-up. She told me she doesn't ever really get girl time, so i promised her that we would have a girls night. And i can't wait for it!
Her brother came and she went home and her brother and i had a VERY deep discussion. I finally felt good about where our friendship was. After talking to him about it all.  Now.. Harry Potter.. 10 years of my childhood was spent on this series.. so of COURSE the last one was an emotional one for me. I cried my eyes out during it, and after it was over. I will truly miss it!!

Friday- It was a normal day. I worked for four hours and then i hung out with Sarah. We decided to go get Kellan and so the three of us went to a park near Kellan's house and just talked. It wasn't anything special.. but it was a good time. So, like i said before. I had been texting Kellan since that one day on the river.  He pretty much set up Sarah and Eric, i told him it was his turn to get set up. And he said "Who would they know to match me with? I mean the only one i can see myself dating is you so yeah." Haha talk about something unexpected happening!

Saturday- It was the dreaded One Day Sale! I worked a long time that day and it was great. After work i got dressed in my PJ'S and hung out with Alli. We decided to kidnap Sarah, so we went to "The Murph" Sarah was making a smores pizza and we chilled behind "The Murph" and just sat there and talked with Kellan. He sang songs, played guitar and told us all stories. After that, Alli, Sarah, and I went on a midnight chicken nugget run.

Sunday- my favorite day of the week. We got a new presidency in the laurel class and i got to stay for ALL of church.  The only thing that bothered me, was that i realized something. Remember me and my very good friend having that deep talk before Harry Potter? Yeah... he didn't talk to me at all the next two days. Not a big deal, i know. But then at church? I think he said "Sit with my family." and that was it. No hello, no goodbye. There is absolutely NO EFFORT. And i can't be the one giving the effort anymore. It sucks. He's friend's with one of my friend's and it's just sad to see how much effort he puts into that friendship, but he doesn't put any in ours. I understand it's DIFFERENT because we dated, but i still think it's a little sad.

After church, i went to work! And i made my sales goal AND got a new account! That sure made ME a happy girl! After work, i hung out with one of my best friends. I feel so bad for her. Her boyfriend dumped her, for the third time. I have to say i DON'T LIKE HIM AT ALL! HE IS SUCH A DOUCHE. The FIRST time they broke up, he hit it and then quit it. The second time SHE broke up with him, and then the next day, he said "I think we need a break from each other." And then this time... this time it was the worst. He didn't talk to her for two days.. and then he just changed his relationship status on facebook. CAN YOU BELIEVE THAT NONSENSE!?!??! Someone needs to punch that kid in the balls, HARD. Anyways, i love her and she deserves SO much better then that D-bag!

That night, I had one of my friends.. well tell me how she really feels about me. And i have to admit. That hurt. BAD. It really makes me feel like I'm an awful person. Much later that night, i was talking to Kellan. We have been texting back and forth, getting to know each other. He actually told me that he was starting to like me... again unexpected!! And to tell you the truth? I think I'm starting to like him back!

Monday was a regular good day. I worked and then i hung out with Sarah, Tara, and Eric. We went to the handicap park and just chilled. The sprinklers turned on so we hurried and jumped outta the way and left. Little did we know, Sarah left her phone in the grass.. her phone is now destroyed. :(.

And finally, yesterday. I went up to the town where I'm going to college to look at apartments. After looking at a few, my friend and i decided on the one we liked the best. it was GREAT!! Step 1 to really getting ready for college is complete! I talked with a financial aid office also, so now I'm feeling pretty great about college!!! I'm so excited to be rooming with one of my very best friends. it'll be such a sweet experience and i can hardly wait for January to get here. Last night, i went to my very first Best of EFY. It was AMAZING. Both speakers touched my heart... and i could REALLY feel the spirit. it was a great experience and I'm SO thankful that i got to go. Before i started writing this blog, i had a talk with a friend. She really doesn't think I'm a very good friend. and it's plain as day that she doesn't trust me, or my intentions. We'll see how that plays out.

Until next week. :)