Confliction.

Oh boy. This week has been full of ups and downs for me.

Honestly, my life is good. I am SO blessed, and i honestly should be more grateful.

Life is good! I should be happier.

But alas, i am not.

As the title says.. I'm conflicted.

I so desperately want things to be okay with my ex boyfriend. And things were going.. well as smoothly as they could, all things considered. And me? With my big mouth? I had to tell him how i was feeling. And now.. we aren't talking. At least, not really. That hurts so badly!

I can tell he is going through a hard time. He has been my shoulder to cry on many times. I just want to be here for him. Yet, being the ex-girlfriend, I'm thinking that he doesn't WANT me to be that person. It honestly hurts so badly. It feels like our friendship is falling apart.

You have to understand, he came into my life at a terrible time. They (his family, not just him) have been such a blessing to me. I don't think they truly understand how much their love has helped me. I don't know what i would do without them. THIS is why it's effecting me so heavily.

You all are probably thinking, wow she talks about her ex too much! I know, i know. I'm STILL getting over this. It helps me to vent. I'm going to try my HARDEST to be positive.

Until next time.